http://www.twitlonger.com/show/n_1smg0rf
http://www.reddit.com/r/leagueoflegends/comments/386lfc/avalon_on_his_winterfox_performance_and_criticism/
안녕. 난 현재 윈터폭스 (구EG) 탑라이너 아발론이야. 이 글을 올려야 할지 잘 모르겠지만 이번NACS 리그로 돌아왔고 많은 사람들이 나를 잘 모르기에 내 이야기를 공유해볼게.
나는 인벤을 자주 방문하고 다른 커뮤니티는 잘 안 들어가.
나는 나에 대한 타인의 평가에 매우 민감해. 예로 친구들이 농담 따먹기식으로 나를 놀리면 가끔 걔들이 한 말 때문에 잠을 못 이룰 때도 있을 정도지.
그래서 북미로 진출했을때 커뮤니티 반응을 보지 않기로 결심했지. 하지만승강전 이후 반응을 보게 되었는데 내가 느낀바를 써볼게.
많은 사람들이 궁금해하는 점이야. “왜 윈터폭스는 아발론을 계속 쓸까?”. 나는 이런 질문을 많이 봐왔어. 시작으로 우리팀은 작년 12월 한국으로 전지훈련을 갔어.
나는 원래 미드라이너였지만 탑으로 포지션 변경 후 라인전에서 크게 문제가 없었지.
하지만 한국에 있는 도중 불행한 일들이 생겼지. 우리는 그 당시 챌린저서폿 xxxx와 함께였어. Gleeb랑 Imagine은 아니야.(레딧반응을 봤을때 IM Ignar 로 추정)
xxxx는 온라인 상에서 굉장히 활발하고 성실하게 보였지만 막상 우리와연습을 돌입했을때 굉장히 부정적인 태도를 지녔었어. 한국을 떠나기 불과 며칠전에 결국 그는 짐을 싸고팀을 나가버렸어.
그는 윈터폭스와 계약을 했음에도 불구하고 돈을 더준다는 다른 북미 챌린저 팀에 들어갔어. 나는 매니지먼트에 대해 잘 몰라서 그거 어떤 페널티를 받았는지는 몰라.
그는 그의 새로운 팀과 잘 안 풀렸는지 며칠 후 우리 게이밍 하우스로 돌아와서 다시 우리와 함께하고 싶다고 말했어. 하지만 그는 우리와 함께 하지 않겠다고 하루전에 말한 것도 있고 아무말 없이 팀을 나간 것과 그에 대한 책임의식또한 볼 수가 없어서 새로운 팀원을 찾기로했지. (의역/오역 의심. 지적좀)
새로운 팀원은 Imagine이였는데 그당시 코치 파라곤에 의해 뽑혔지. 하지만 LCS에서 플레이 하기위해서는 비자가 필요했어.
여행비자로는 lcs에서 뛸 수 없기 때문에 우리는 임시 플레이어를촉박한 시간내로 찾아야했어. imagine은 나와 헬리오스보다도 늦게 뛰었지. (의역/오역 의심. 지적좀)
그 이후에는 큰 문제없이 4,5주차까지 진행되었어. 그 때쯤 나의 실력이 확 떨어졌고 많은 비판이 쏟아졌었어. 왜 헬리오스가동생을 데리고 왔는지 말이야.
맞아. 심지어 나조차도 내가 못했다고 생각하니까. 하지만 우리팀은 봇키우기 스타일이였고 나는 라인전에서 죽지않는 마인드로 뛰었지. 그로 인해 나는 팀에 영향이 거의 없게되었어. 많은 스트레스와 내가팀의 구멍이 된다는 생각에 나는 매니저에게 벤치를 자처했어. 매니저는 조금만 더 해보자 했지만 나는이를 거절했지.
하지만 이틀후에 이매진이 개인적인 사정으로 팀을 나가게 되었어. 그래서나는 어쩔 수 없이 다시 뛰게 되었어. 그때가 파라곤이 선수로 투입됬을때야. 우리는 솔직히 선택지가 없었어. 알텍은 솔로큐에서 서폿을 많이 했고잘하기도 해서 그게 가장 우리에게 최선이라고 생각했어.
이매진이 나간이후 Gleeb를 영입했어. 하지만 큰 성공은 거두지 못했지.
8주차 됬을때 나는 스크림에서 오더를 많이 내리기 시작했고 라인전도나아졌어. 이로인해 나는 자신감을 어느정도 되찾았어. 우리는이상태로 lcs경기를 치뤘는데 결국 마지막 주에서 2승을거뒀지. 하지만 우리는 이미 promotion tournament를확정지었었어.
프로모션 토너먼트 도중에 나는 내 플레이에 대해 꽤 만족했어. 1,2 세트때상대 탑보다 cs도 많이 벌렸고 솔로킬도 냈었지. 물론 게임은졌지만 나는 선수로서 내가 많이 성장했다고 생각했어. 하지만 인벤에 갔을때 반응은, ‘아직도 아발론이 뛰냐’, ‘아발론 때문에 지지 않았냐’ 등등의 반응이 많았지. 굉장히 실망했었어. 사람들이 나를 보는 시선을 바꿀 방법이 없다고 느꼈고 많이 좌절했지.
내가 북미에 보여준 것은 좋지 않았고 나는 이에 따른 비판을 감수해야 하지만 그래도 사람들이 내 과거에 못했던점과 그에 대한 안티팬들의 반응에 휩쓸려 색안경을 끼고 나를 안 봤으면해.
이번 NACS에서 내가 새팀과 잘하기를 빌어. 우리팀 이번 스플릿 응원 많이 부탁해!
Hello, I am Avalon, the top laner for the NA team Winterfox (previously EG). I didn’t know if I should post this or not, but now that I am back in the USA for NACS I want to share my story since most people don’t know that much about me.
I usually don’t go to other community sites besides Inven, which I frequent quite regularly.
My personality type is such that I am very sensitive about what people around me say or assess about me. Even when just friends would take jabs at me while joking around, I have had times where I have been unable to go to sleep thinking about what they said.
So when I first came to America, I decided that I wouldn’t read anything that the community wrote (about me). However, after returning to Korea and now that relegations are over I wanted to write out my feelings after having read Inven.
A lot of people were curious about, “Why does Winterfox keep using Avalon?” I’ve seen this question come up many times. For starters, our team bootcamped in Korea for about a month last December.
I had originally been playing mid lane, but even though I suddenly switched to the top lane, there were no huge issues with my laning.
However, a lot of unfortunate events occurred during our month long boot camp. We had been practicing with a challenger support player, xxxxx, and not Imagine or Gleeb.
xxxxx had seemed to have a very outgoing and hardworking attitude online, but had a very negative attitude once he joined us at the gaming house we were bootcamping at. With only a few days before leaving Korea, Ixxxx suddenly packed up his belongings and left the gaming house.
Despite having a contract with Winterfox, he had left for another NA challenger team because they had offered him higher pay. I’m not overly familiar with the management of the team, so I don’t know what penalties were levied against him.
I’m not sure whether things didn’t work out between xxxxx and his new team, but a few days later he came back to our gaming house and asked to play for us again. However, since he said told us a day before he had left that he couldn’t play with us any longer, we decided to hurry and look for a new player instead. Furthermore he had asked to play for us again after running away without any word or sense of responsibility.
Our new player was Imagine, who had been brought on by our then-coach, Paragon. However, you need a visa in order to play in the LCS.
You can’t play in the LCS with a traveler’s visa. We had to find a new player in a short amount of time, but we had start the visa process from the beginning, and Imagine joined us in the US to play in the LCS even later than me or Helios.
After that point we played out our matches without any large problems until about Week 4 or Week 5 (I don’t exactly recall when). My performance went down sharply around that time, and there was a lot of criticism that said things like, “Why did Helios bring his younger brother (to WFX)?’
Yes, even I think there were quite a lot of games where I played poorly. However, due to our team’s playstyle, which was to get the bottom lane rolling, I played to not die in lane. Because of that, my ability to impact games hit rock bottom and it was so stressful that I told our manager that I felt like I was holding the team back and asked if I could be subbed out so I could have some time to recharge. The manager asked me to play a little bit more and wait and see and I adamantly refused.
After resting for about two day, Imagine suddenly had to leave our team due to personal reasons. So I had to unfortunately keep playing. That was the game that Paragon had played. We had no other options and Altec had played a lot of games very well as support on Solo Queue, so that move had seemed like the best option left for us.
After Imagine, we brought in Gleeb and continued to play for about 3 weeks without much success.
Around Week 8, I suddenly started making more calls in scrims, and my laning got a lot better, which led to an increase in confidence. We played our last games in LCS in that state, and we finished the season with 2 wins and 0 losses that week, but we were already locked for the promotion tournament.
During the promotion tournament, I was satisfied with my play. In games 1 and 2 I created quite a large CS lead and made solo kills in my lane. Even though we lost in the end, I felt that I had progressed a lot as a player, but when I went onto Inven, a lot people were saying things like, “They’re still using Avalon?” and “Didn’t they lose due to Avalon?” As I personally thought that I had progress quite a bit compared to before, I was extremely disappointed. It seemed like there was no way to fix the way people viewed me, which left me at a loss.
My performance in North America was not good, and while I am I able to take criticism and such, I wish that people would take off their tinted glasses and not just lazily latch onto what others have said in the past while joining the ‘Avalon is bad’ circlejerk.
I hope to do well in the NACS this split with the new roster! I hope you will cheer my team and me this upcoming split!
Lunair
